I've been hesitant to share what I’ve been going through recently, frankly because I was embarrassed. I was embarrassed to struggle with health issues when I strive to live such a “healthy” lifestyle... whatever that means. I felt like such a fraud for posting about so many health-conscious choices I’ve made over the years... only to end up where I am right now.
However, with every challenge comes the opportunity for growth. Yet as we all know, it’s not easy when you’re in the midst of it. I’ve started to get answers and feel like I’m on the road to healing, so I’ve started to be able to step back and look at the situation more objectively.
My biggest take away so far has been this: I place an enormous amount of my self worth in being healthy. I seriously had no idea. But having it taken away made me realize how obvious it was. I was feeling so worthless.
So what am I even dealing with here?! Well, first of all parasites. And gut issues, which is likely some sort of bacterial, fungal or viral infection. Oh, and I know for sure low stomach acid. It's a whole host of symptoms like bloating...INSANE 6+ months pregnant painful bloating...as in I don't fit into my pants bloating. Messed up digestion, increased agitation and irritability (yes, symptoms of parasites and gut issues), and it's CONSTANT work to keep my anxiety at bay (yes, also symptoms of parasites and gut infections).
I felt like a mess, but after feeling like I've taken myself as far as I can go on my own, I am going to be working with a holistic, functional practitioner to heal as quickly and efficiently as possible. With some additional testing, we'll be able to see EXACTLY what I have going on in my gut and treat it appropriately. They say it takes about 3-5 months to kill off the infections/parasites and another 3-5 months to heal the gut... So while we're looking at the 6-9 month range, I peg myself more at the 6 month range because I'm on over achiever like that... But hey, no expectations...just doing my best and going with it!
Honestly, there's like SO MUCH MORE to it than this post, and I plan to take you along on my journey. It's honestly so cathartic for me to share these things. I love the encouragement, the feedback of other perspectives, and the inspiration it can provide others to take a closer look at their health.